Originally written in June 2011, and after I saw the YouTube comment on my video (at the end) I just had to post this. He was right..:)
Yesterday I got an email from someone saying that some people find me annoying, cloying, and overdone, among other things. I didn't know if that was supposed to be some sort of revelation to me because it's not. I would be the first to admit that I am all these things and more. In fact I used to be worse and it took death, a fire and losing everything to finally find myself.
Am I annoying? I can be the person you just don't want to be around sometimes as I talk too much about everything. There is nothing I don't have a comment on, and somehow even if you don't want to hear it, you do. I greet everyone and anything that moves and have been dubbed "Chatty Cathy” by a loved one. But, I am very sincere in what I do.
Am I cloying? Of course I am overly sweet, way too much sometimes, and it is worse in real life. I really care about people and will bulldoze anything in my way to help them. I have little money but I can certainly offer them words of support. Sometimes another fault of mine is that I try to do things running as fast as I can in a cart without a horse.
I have been warned time and time again through life not to get involved in things because it will end up backfiring. And yes, sometimes it does. But if no one puts that first foot forward who will? That is one of the major problems with today’s world. Everyone is flying by the seat of their pants and into their own agenda. Granted in today’s fearful world people are cautious, but surely someone can take a chance.
Am I overdone? One only has to look at me and the clothes I wear to understand that. I have really calmed down over the years but you just cannot put a girl like me back in a box. I’d rather be overdone than underdone.
One day I woke up and I had nothing. From having everything that money could buy I suddenly had to do without and only had myself. I realized in a short period of time that I didn't need what I once had. Neither did I care for the type of person I was turning into in my former life. I am no saint by any means but I began to learn to stop feeling sorry for myself, my past, and began to release the anger I had in me.
I still get involved and state my opinions, but I'm done with the fighting. I have learned there are way too many other things going on that are more important than creating ill will. But when I really believe in something I fight in my own way - sometimes keeping it to myself and doing things in the background. Better to put out a fire quietly than throw gas on it.
I have many faults that I freely admit to, but my heart is true and always will be, and for that I offer no apologies. I finally realized it’s not all about me; it is really about the world and who is in it. What you see and read on my blog everyday is what you get from me in person.
Frightening isn't it?
In my heart I believe there is a place for everyone somewhere, no matter who you are and whatever faults you have. Plus the older we get I have learned just to not to give a shit.
Life is mostly froth and bubble,
Two things stand like stone,
Kindness in another's trouble,
Courage in your own.
~Adam Lindsay Gordon
Images and text by Linda Seccaspina
Picture 1- The closing of my second store in 1997- Savannah Devilles (I'm in the middle)
Picture 2- The late great Michelle and the dress I designed for her that won first prize in the UK.
Picture 3- Yes me, the Maiden of death fighting about something again:)
Comment from chuck norris 2 years ago on my youtube video:
Stupid video you should be banned from
I want that 30 seconds of my life back that you just stole...
Wow what a shit video
I can't get over how stupid this is
OMG I want to shoot my self just knowing I wasted 30 seconds watching that
WHAT WAS I THINkING?